Slow Motion Explosion

I'm watching it all come cascading down now, the cracks in the scenery have broken completely.  It's all in pieces and I feel the heat of the explosion scorching against my face.  It's moving slowly, but I'm fixed in place barely able to breathe.  Even if I wanted to catch everything and put it back together, and I do oh how I want to, I don't think the I have the strength for it left in me.

The mess is huge now, there's so much damage and it isn't just mine any more.  I see your faces one by one being blown over by the force of what is happening.  I was supposed to be your pillar and now I'm crumbling, how did I expect it to be any different?  I set myself up for failure from the beginning and expected to some how prevail none the less.  Then I brought you all into it.

So here I am, falling defeated to the floor.  I feel myself growing cold, but my eyes still burn hot with tears.  Everything else around me is beginning to dissolve, it isn't just shattered anymore.  It's all dissolving into dust and slipping away in the warm nuclear breeze.  It's all so close, I want to catch the remnants and pull life back together.  The ground is coming up now though, faster than it before, and things are going dark.

I love you, I love all of you and I never meant for any of this to happen.  I never meant for this bomb to go off.  I just wanted to be happy with you, I think I asked too much.